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The Wound Attempts to Help The Scar

I haven’t shared my own voice in awhile, the 1st Month of 2017 is coming to a close and the order of my focus has changed just a little
1. God
2. Self
3. My children
4. Family
5. The world in reference to the contributions I make currently
6. The world in reference to the contributions I will make towards the future

I have shared with some “Its taken me 20 plus years to get in this shit and it just may take me 20 plus years to get out of it.”

This year will mark my 7th year of Transition into many areas of life -spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally, and Lord aw mercy for the financially. While I have gained milestone transitions in mindset; physically the Baby steps are in motion but as shared with a friend – “This year is the working for those steps to pick up speed”

But for the meantime in between time, in the words of a sermon by TD Jakes

“allow me to stitch your scar while I hold my wound”

We all know what and who we have in the physical office that has caused and created much chaos in a matter of 10 days. For many of us we know Who is the ruler and author of our life so whose in office doesn’t have much bearing on our lives anyway. Yet in my thinking, if we could see what’s at hand and work boldly together, while he is in the process of using everything in his power to destroy as much as possible, this is our opportune time to build and rebuild especially if we didn’t use the prior 8 years to do so.

Prior to this post I shared two videos that provide insight on building financially. Yesterday I wrote a document to assist towards a module for a financial literacy workshop. I amaze myself at times having access to some of the things I do but have yet to apply them to my own life, thus understand why I say:

“allow me to stitch your scar while I hold my wound”

The document i wrote yesterday addressed mindset, money and wealth. While there are many forces working in this world that play a part in much i.e. society, environments, levels of education, etc.
Between yesterday’s document and today’s video mindset, money, and wealth are three things we all have access too. How we are using them and what we are doing with them are the factors that we of the darker shades of hue have drastically got to change.

Once the financial literacy course is complete, I will share with you the dates and times the class will be offered. Please know that i am not the teacher of this class I only offered some insight towards mindset, money and wealth which was gained from two books I have been studying from, and some advice I know a few of my family members and friends are living..

So, in the meantime in between time “allow me to stitch your scar while I hold my wound” and close with this- examine the mindset, gain insight of money, and desire to know wealth

Because as rich as one may consider themselves to be, unless one has $1000-$5000 at disposal to share with anyone between the ages of 16-25, and I am not speaking of a charity, I am speaking of an actual individual on a monthly basis, and not miss it or have to care where its going, we are missing the mark to create the money and wealth that’s needed to sustain our Future.

Pay Attention to everything that’s being taken away and ask yourself if the bank was to drop today do you own most of what you have, can you rightfully say this is mine and it is paid for, other than clothes and shoes?

These are the things we have to change for Future- “allow me to stitch your scar while I hold my wound” and deeply consider our stand for our Future, and what can we currently do now to contribute to making and creating drastic changes.

PS the $1000-$5000 will be explained at another time but in between time consider all things ages 16-25 need and could use during this time on a monthly basis beside clothes, shoes, cell, and entertainment – and this is the start of ideas to develop that will come into play – thus being a creator and provider of opportunities

October 31, 2016 


Today I enjoyed – I have one hour 7 minutes before my baby girl, middle child, second daughter will be 13 years old- officially a teenager ( this was the time I started this note) 
We had a Great Time tonight and to place an end to a Perfect Day – I am sitting down reading Proverbs 31 for Day 31 of the month
The title of the 1st section Wisdom for Leaders verses 1-9
Title of second section Wise Women verses 10-31
Verses 8-9 
8. “Open your mouth for the speechless,

In the case of all who are appointed to die.

9. Open your mouth, JUDGE righteously, 

And plead the cause for the poor and needy.”

A few days ago I shared an article about Leaders knowing the difference between Judge to evaluate and Judgements-mental – making assumptions 

May I Be Blessed with Discernment to JUDGE WISELY- facts and truth- no more assumptions 

Happy Monday Evening last Day of October -55 minutes remain in this day (the time when finished typing and editing); the 60 day countdown to the closing of 2015 Strong, Honest, Trust and Focus – Lets Make IT Great with Much Love, Peace, Soul and Happiness 




The holder prints “Take what you need”

I picked Hope

I stay encouraged
That’s what I vowed to do
I read it in the Good Book
Know a song about it too

Suppression blocks Encouragement

Thus I Hope for what I need

“Keep Hope Alive” I watched Jessie shout this through the screen
Pun to many jokes add laughters to the room

Hope is what’s keeping me to Survive


Person who aims to Be
Encouraged at all times

I keep Hope Alive
I Survive
Living each day reaching to Thrive

The G.R.U.D.G.E 



Refused to be 





Copyright Niki Alston October 10, 2016 

This past week October 2- October 8 God has once agin revealed MUCH. This battle we face I say again is for the Souls and the Spirits.  

We are Spirits here on Earth, these choices we face are either building or destroying Spirit. There is a hold on gripes, misperceptions, false teachings, and lack of understanding that has festered into damaging grievances that has at the moment were at today.

At this time we are all being called to look at ourselves deeper than ever to say what will I do to shape the future. We have defined the problems, We have watched the lies unfold, now it is our time to stand for the Soul and Spirits of the Future.

I write to express my thoughts, I Live to be a solution, I aim daily to join with others to display the One Accord of Better and Greatness, praying to be a “Great Truth whose opposite is also Truth”

We have more choices than we examine, and we have to look outside of the mainstream to focus on the stream of Unity to change things around. We can Restructure more than we think. Learn everything they are not teaching and discussing here is the start of planting seeds within to generate ideas out. Everyday read history, learn something new completely outside the culture, start to go places you haven’t been, and in the newness- newness will reveal more of itself.

Today I pray That we ALL Be Blessed to see what Spirit is saying beyond what is being shown before us. I know the message may seem as repeat but right now we are still in the repeat of racism, crooked politicians and candidates, we are still fighting for fair pay and equal opportunity- until the issues are resolved the message to solutions will be the same Unify, Build Spirit and Soul, seek newness to get new, Trust, Build and know the things that are R.E.A.L. 



Accurately beyond 


Will create and Generate the next Level of Transformation to things that have been started but have not quite gain the momentum to solidify impact.

Happy Good Monday World – I promise I am Seeking the depth required to be more of solution 

What’s the Police Solution

In the conclusion of a conversation held Saturday, this was my final take on ALL that’s going on

“I have not posted any direct articles about Crutcher or Scott on my page- I will not watch the video because no matter what the video shows or say – it always seems to turn into what the “dead: could have done, should have done, or would have done from everyone. On both sides, it’s never heavy questioning of the cops. Understand much ridicule of the shootings, much about the shootings, but the “dead” are dragged through the mud.

My only concern about everything is this -what’s the solution to cops who are PAID to protect and serve – not shoot people of color 1st and ask questions later – what’s the solution to end that policy under the badge that allows this crime to keep happening over and over again. And if this is the new policy with no retribution, jail time, or loss of job and pay, then maybe we can start hiring gang members as officers as well so they can become more legally employed and this may end some of the issues we have on the other end”

There have been over 2000 lives mainly Black Lives lost at the hands of the police over these last few years and this is what the rage for me is about. If the shootings in our communities are senseless imagine how even more senseless it is for paid employees whose oath of their position is to protect and serve and they are acting like simple thugs with no regards to life especially the BLACK LIVES

Happy Soulful Super Suddenly Saturday – May we Be Blessed to live the remainder of these days as solutions giving voice, action, and physicality to God by becoming the Grandest version of the Greatest Vision ever held about who we are, and who we will become. The Best is yet to come- So may we all Be Blessed to Make it Great.”

Angry I Should Have BEEN

Believe it or not


Most of us want to escape this


But it keeps knocking at your door, ringing your phone, controlling your timeline, and bombarding your news feed TV or online


Why because It’s Time


It’s time to Live Up to “ALL that Makes America Great”


It’s time to Live Up to the Greatness of History, that Higher Power you so judge everyone actions upon, that sin you have shared with us for so long, It’s Time to Be all of God you have taught for so long and “established the laws upon”, Its’ time to answer completely without any excuses of what you don’t know or don’t understand when everyone now has a dictionary with an encyclopedia in their hand. It’s time to live up to that right and wrong you have established rules, regulations, and laws upon It’s Time


And It’s long overdue to make Amends on actions so many are crucified for while others walk away unscathed


We have heard your outrage on numerous issues including abortions


We have yet to hear and see a stand for your fellow human lives.


You coined “ALL Lives Matter” now make it True


We are tired of hearing you protest louder for EVERYTHING under the sun – other than this


This “This”, I am speaking of is modern lynchings/ justified murders by KKK in uniforms – you are tired of hearing about it- and we are so exhausted from marching, petitioning, rallying, and protesting


And most exasperated from bury people who only fault, blame, or crime is being “Colored”


However we understand it will never bother you for 3 reasons


1. Throughout history you have been comfortable labeling us as animals yet you protect animals more than you can muster up the decency to treat us fair – sad as it is that’s all we ever asked for -fairness- you don’t have to like or love us just be fair – but somehow that simple decency has alluded your ancestors and you


2.The label you give is the label you wear- from your slave ships to prisons -no one knows an animal like an animal


3. Throughout history in all your misdeeds for some reason we have never gathered the hate, the extreme anger, or the lowness to kill you “Whites” in the manner in which you do us-even when we have taken a stand for ourselves the number of times we have resulted to violence versus the countless times you “whites” have killed in masses or individuals have no comparison in numbers, the last 3 years of senseless murders outweighs our numbers throughout history alone


You see there are numerous cities and countries where you are clearly outnumbered and no police can truly protect you all and still -knowing this- all we ask for is fairness and this scares, baffles, and drive your minds and actions of guilt, shame and privilege to acts of pure insanity and disgust.


So you protest everything and justify it all with everything other than the Honesty that your actions back then and your current actions now are utterly barbaric, low class and GHETTO.


I said a week or so ago “We are all burnt Black from the hypocrisy” and right now the people of color you shot at constantly will be you “Whites” killing your own “whites” more than you have experienced thus far Columbine and Sandy Hook have nothing on the massacres you will face from your own – I promise it will never be us to be this way -not towards you all -history has shown it’s not in our DNA


We as Blacks, People of Color will do as we always did and do now Love, Pray, and continue to make the most and even delicacies out of the scraps you give and I actually believe this is also another fear factor for you- how can people endure so much and still make it through and Great


Signed the Angry Black Woman Niki Alston today on Wednesday September 21, 2016 .


And in all my anger I still have not picked up the phone and called none of my Cousins on that ass- because Trust more of them are waiting on that call than you think- but it has never been or will be in my nature


We Pray and Strategize to make better before we result to war- we leave those tactics and teachings of war, terrorism, and hate to “You Good White Folks”


Now protest this like you have the teacher stepping on the flag and continue to remain silent in things that really matter like you do

Who Do I Live For?

To wake up thinking its at least 3 AM or so – and the clock says 1:06 AM – Wow

So I scroll hoping to drain myself back to sleep 

An hour later, I have this on mind:

Within each individual heart “Can we ask ourselves this question, “Do I Live for God, or Do I live for man”?  

Now God for you is who is for you – putting All religion aside regardless of the teachings you follow those teachings all believe in a Power higher than self other then Atheist 

So again I ask “Do I live for God, or Do I Live for man?”

And to every individual that answers Yes I Live for God, I live for that power Higher than Self

Seek your heart again and answer this next question putting all personal beliefs aside, answering solely on the Love of God “How much of God rules my heart and mind” 

Not what I believe, what I been taught, take a deep personal assessment and answer if God and I were walking hand and hand right now in the physical, would I do the things I am doing, would I treat people the way I treat them, would I talk the way that I talk, I am sure you understand where this is going 

If not here it is – Live for God seeing him as a Spirit, as well as a person walking with you right now, going everywhere you go, doing everything you do, and if you feel He would be proud of your actions carry on

But for many of us we know he wouldn’t be and this is why we aim to justify Him every step of the way, not for understanding of self but for justification of our actions or lack thereof.

You see even if I stay away from the headlines of the news and take in the personal battles, the war that’s raging is how we treat one another and while the largest battle is racism the underlying factor is how much respect do we have for one another and how much love do we have for ourselves to treat others the way we do. There is no question of what justice and fairness looks like. The question is how do we conquer our personal hate to stop putting it out in the world. Whether it’s man versus woman, black versus white, or dog versus cat right now the ego, hate, pain, and lies need to checked and addressed. Let’s just throw as much of the bullshit as we can out the door; let’s stop being the pot calling the kettle black when right about now we all are burnt black by the fire of hypocrisy.

Do I Live for God, or Do I Live for man? And if it be for God -Truth will stand